Showing posts with label God. Show all posts
Showing posts with label God. Show all posts

Monday, December 14, 2009

What a Day!

Ok, so it was a crazy day! First I get a text on my phone that the kids have a two hour delay from school, then Craig had jury duty in Toledo at 8:30 and my appointment was to check in at 12:45. Plus, to top it off there was ice. Well, the kids got taken care of and off on the bus while we set off for Toledo. The roads actually weren't as bad as we thought they were going to be and we got to the court house early enough to stop and get a cappuccino. Craig and I had decided that if he wasn't out by 10:30 I would have to go to my appointment on my own. So while Craig was having his fun (haha)I went shopping. Now in Toledo there isn't many choices so it was Pamida. Hey, it works. I did find a couple gifts and by the time I left the snow was a falling and big time! Back to the court house. I sat there in the waiting room watching the snow coming down even harder praying the whole time that God would let Craig get out of jury duty so I could have his support. Unbeknownest to me Craig was reading a book about ....and praying also about getting out of jury duty to be where he thought he should be which was with me. (what a sweetie) At 10:45 I head to the car knowing I had to go to my appointment on my own and the sun actually starts coming out and it stops snowing. Writing this I know now that was a sign that everything was going to work out. So, I figure," I am woman, hear me roar!" I can go on my own. I can do this! So off I went. About 8 minutes out my phone rings and it is Craig. He is done. Hallelujah! So I turned around and went back to get him. God is so good. I really didn't want to go on my own.

Roads were kind of Yucky on the way to Iowa City until we got closer to Cedar Rapids and four lanes, then they were quite good. We even got to my appointment by 12:50 so only 5 minutes late. Just another way God was watching out. Then I went and got checked in and was told I could go right back to get my blood drawn (which by the way actually hurt this time and felt like I had a rock in my arm afterwards), and when that was done a nurse was waiting for me in the hall to get my weight, blood pressure and temp. I was then taken right back to a room. (Ok, so if you have followed all of that you will know that I have now been in three different rooms and Craig wonders why I cant ever find my way out of the last room to the receptionist.) What a change from the last time I was there and waited over an hour and half.

First Karen, who is our patient coordinator in regards to the Tasigna test trial, came in and asked if we had any questions. She talked about what mainly would happen if and when I got on Tasigna next month and if I had enough Gleevec to get me through till then. Let me just say now that she is a great lady. She has stayed in contact with us since our last visit. One of the reason I would like to go on this test trial is because she is very good about keeping touch. We all know by now how that is important to me. I have received several emails from her this past month with questions and answers. She has been great.

A few minutes after she left the PA came in. She was in a silly mood today. She asked the usual questions and then when she was asking about medications if any had changed she asked about birth control. This is something that was mentioned a year ago but never pursued. Partly our fault. We told her this has never been something we had to be on . Getting pregnant was not the easiest thing for me. She just got the funniest look on her face and things just got silly then. She told us about when she was 40 and got pregnant and how your never too old and on and on. Then she told me to jump up on the exam table and she started listening to my heart. She replied with, "well it's about 140 so it must be a girl." (haha) and then she checked my legs for swelling (which does happen being on Gleevec) and I told her I didn't have any and she looked up and said, "yep there was." pertaining to being pregnant and having swelling. (haha) The whole visit was just silly like that. It was a lot of fun. When she left she said she would see us in a month for the ultra sound and the view of our twins. (haha)

Next, Dr Gingrich came in and he basically said that he would like me to be on the Tasigna the middle of January whether it is on the trial study or not. The only reason it wouldn't be in the trial study would be if my number went down to all zeros and he couldn't convince the drug rep company that it would be a good thing for me. He just thinks that with the increase recently of my numbers and not knowing for sure what the cause was that it would just be a good idea for me to me on the Tasigna. So my next appointment is January 11 and I will have more than the usually blood test along with an EKG and probably a bone marrow biopsy. All wonderful things too look forward too.

With the start of this new drug things will be a little different with our insurance deductible and when we will meet that. We might not have to meet it very first thing in January like last year which is good but more than likely with in a few months.

So we actually got out of there by 2:30. Only an hour basically in there this time WOW! Yet another God thing. So off to lunch we went. Then on our way out of Coralville we missed our turn and ended up passing a Walmart to turn around at and I asked Craig if we could please stop to check and see if they had this game my friend and I had looked for the day before that she wanted for Christmas and everyone was out of them. He didn't really want to but he was a good guy and did and guess what. They had the game. I am telling you it was meant to be. It may all sound silly but yes God even leads us in the right direction to buy the things we need.

We got home safely. Once again on the way I received another text on my phone from the school. (I think I started my day out this way didn't I?) saying that my daughter's Christmas program was canceled yet a second time and that all-after school and evening activities where canceled which meant my son's rescheduled basketball game was once again canceled due to weather. Hanna's program is rescheduled for Thursday. Not a good night for us. Roads were starting to get wind blown and the temperature was dropping. Yet again at 7:26 I received another text saying school would be delayed again another two hours. Looks like it is going to be an interesting school year.

Thank you God for watching out for us today. We don't always see it and realize it but you are there with us in all we do.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Coming to an End


Coming To an End?

I think I am on my last stretch of this road. My last Dr appt May 22nd went well. Again I had my blood drawn and was finally able to get the results of my last FISH and PCR test. Both test said the same thing. That I was about .6% or 6 Leukemic cells out of 1000 something like that. Craig does better at explaining all this. They want it to be at zero or at least under .2%. It is all good news. I would have never thought I would be at this point 6 months ago. Once my count is where the Dr wants them to be then I believe I will have to have another Bone Marrow done to check the counts in that and that will be the official point of full remission. At least this time I will know what is going on. Is that good or bad, I don’t know. My next appointment is June 26th. I don’t have any blood work appointments before that like my PCR. I wonder if the Dr Sangha realizes that. Hmmmmm?

I have been struggling some with my anxiety. Nothing serious by any means, just been noticing it more at night. My thoughts have been trying to take over my body. Hate it when that happens. But I have also noticed in this past 6 months that I am not worrying about things as much as I use too. From the little things like making sure my legs are shaved and if I have make-up on when I go out in public. To being scared to do out of the ordinary things for me.

For instance, I know this is going to sound really stupid but the other day Craig, the kids and I went out hiking in the woods. Now normally I wouldn’t have too much trouble with that as long as there was a path but we didn’t by any means stay on the path. We were on grass up to Hanna’s head and mud and climbing under and over trees and cricks, you name it. Normally I would have been worrying about tics, and poison ivy (ok I was little) and other animals like scaring a deer and having it charge us (I warned you it was stupid!) and even should we be out here? I actually just enjoyed the time and had fun with this adventure. I just don’t seem to worry as much about what others are thinking about me which is WAY out of my comfort zone. God has used this experience to show me that I can be and do what I want without worrying if it is ok with everyone else. God does have a plan for me. I have always known that and I am even more convinced of that.

I have been wondering what will happen to this blog when the Doctors say that I am in complete remission. I am not sure but I have enjoyed this easy way of sharing with everyone. It is amazing how many people get on and read it. I think it would be a great thing to continue sharing everyone’s prayer concerns possibly for others who are facing leukemia and other cancers.

Friday, February 13, 2009

Don't Waste Your Cancer


One of my favorite authors is John Piper who wrote -Desiring God

He writes this article which I believe very clearly states how Jody and I have determined to live into her current diagnosis. It is not always easy, but with God's help and a lot of love from each other, friends, and family, we are doing our best to let God shine through even this most difficult time. Enjoy these top ten. (Also find the link to his whole article below)

1. You will waste your cancer if you do not believe it is designed for you by God.

2. You will waste your cancer if you believe it is a curse and not a gift.

3. You will waste your cancer if you seek comfort from your odds rather than from God.

4. You will waste your cancer if you refuse to think about death.

5. You will waste your cancer if you think that “beating” cancer means
staying alive rather than cherishing Christ.

6. You will waste your cancer if you spend too much time reading
about cancer and not enough time reading about God.

7. You will waste your cancer if you let it drive you into solitude
instead of deepen your relationships with manifest affection.

8. You will waste your cancer if you grieve as those who have no hope.

9. You will waste your cancer if you treat sin as casually as before.

10. You will waste your cancer if you fail to use it as a means of
witness to the truth and glory of Christ.


John Piper has been the Pastor for Preaching at Bethlehem Baptist Church in Minneapolis, Minnesota, since 1980. He has authored numerous best-selling books, including The Passion of Jesus Christ, Don't Waste Your Life and Desiring God.

Find this article at: http://www.crosswalk.com/1383847/